Monday, February 24, 2014
Ok so this week was also another really hard week for me. It’s really hard because I just got here and met all our investigators and we had to drop almost all of them. I cried I love them all so much but I know it was the right thing because they weren’t progressing and they just need a break so they can see what they are missing. One of my favorite things on the mission is tracting. It’s super scary and people aren’t always nice, but when they are I just feel so happy and I just want to teach them what I know. But my trainer sister Davis hates tracting and that’s really hard. The way we tract isn’t the right way to do it. the past couple of weeks I just felt like I’m not doing what I’m supposed to. I’m just going through the motions and not really trying to find people. This is so sad because that is why I’m here to find, teach and baptize. I’m here to minister for God and so I’ve been praying so hard for help to know what I’m supposed to do and last night I got an answer to my prayers. I could not get to bed for the life of me. so I just closed my eyes and had all these thoughts going through my head and long story short I’ve been praying to know how to tract better and get more success and basically all I have to do is tell them to read the book of Mormon. Ponder the words in it and pray to know that they are true. My trainer like I said before doesn’t really like tracting and the way I learned to tract is from her. Pretty much we knock at a door tell them who we are and ask if they want to hear a message and if they don’t we say ok and walk away. Just the couple of weeks I’ve been here I know we won’t have any success by doing that. So I have to step up my game and do what I know I’m supposed to do and hopefully Sister Davis will have my back. I know that if people will read it they will know it’s true. They just have to take the time. We as missionaries and members can’t be afraid and shouldn’t be afraid to share our beliefs and be exited to share them. God is preparing people every day to hear the gospel. We just have to take the time to find them and not be afraid to minister to them. That’s what we are. All of us, not just me, we are ministers of God. We were put on the earth to find people and share our blessing of the gospel. We are so lucky we were born LDS. But now it’s our job to help people find their own testimonies. It’s going to be hard and trust me I know it’s scary but if we don’t try then we aren’t doing our job. I’ve realized that I had so many opportunities to share the gospel with my friends but I was too scared. Now I’m not. I love them and I want them to have what I have and that’s the gospel of Jesus Christ. This is my testimony I know that if you open your mouth and share your beliefs with people you never know who is ready to hear what you have to say. Don’t be afraid. I love you all so much. I’m growing so much as a person and I know my purpose! I know I have to be a leader now. I can’t be shy and just go with the flow. I’m taking off at a dead sprint and sprinting to the finish line for 18 months. I’m running this race and I’m going to win it :)
I’ve learned that we as missionaries can’t do this work on our own we need members to help us. We need you to all open our mouths and just say “I’m a member of the church of Jesus Christ of latter-day Saints”. This is my belief. Invite everyone to go to church or give them a book of Mormon. Tell them to read it, ponder the words and pray to know if they are true. It’s not hard. We all know how to talk. We all know what we believe. We all know where we are going. Some people don’t. Some people are so lost and scared. We tracted into this younger guy, He doesn’t go to any church and doesn’t know why he is here. So many people are willing to listen. We just have to be willing to talk. So a goal for my loving family, friends and yes even My Nauvoo ward. Please open your mouths. Talk to everyone. Invite everyone share the scriptures with everyone. I promise you that if you do these things miracles will happen. You will sow an amazing change. We are here on this earth to serve. So let’s do it. Let’s all be ministers. Let’s all be missionaries. I love you and I know you can do it if I can. I’m a 19 year old girl talking to strangers. I know you can talk to people you know. Tell all the Steen family I love them and share this with them please. This is so important. I love you all. You can do it! You’re all ready!
The difference between a preacher and a minister is that a minister cares a lot about what they are telling people. I’m a minister I CARE A LOT ;)
Love Sister Steen